Emilie Louise

THE CURE FOR OCD? CHAPTER 2. WORLD MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS WEEK.

Friday, 11 October 2019

Chapter 2

Our first session we spoke a little about myself. It's quite tricky to come up with facts about yourself when a lot of the time you look back on past memories and OCD just tends to bombard them all.

After a couple more sessions where Jennifer listened intently to my life stories and experiences, whilst writing down a list of my daily triggers, thoughts and compulsions, we began to deal with them.

With help from my husband, i look at life in a very logical way. Which is quite the contrary to OCD. I love to do things that are efficient, wether it's when i clean or put my makeup on, i love doing it in a way that is logical. It could be about a certain topic in the news and both me and Richard (the other piece of my heart & who I love intently. Quick grab your sick buckets!) will discuss things and put the world to right (in our own opinion) with our logical way of thinking haha.

I began to realise that because of this way of thinking, i was noticing more of an impact from what Jennifer and I discussed in our sessions. A click of a switch went off inside me where i just thought, OMG of course. Why am I doing this? What am i achieving from doing this? It won't change a thing, it doesn't mean anything, it's out of my control...

During the times of my thoughts, compulsions, triggers, I knew they were silly. In the back of my mind i knew that just because i looked at that piece of paper and thought of a memory that, that memory wouldn't really be deleted and kept in a place i don't want it to be but after many years of thinking and feeling this, it does becomes so real to you. I knew that touching something 8, 10, 12 times wouldn't be achieving anything other than a split second of relief.

But something about relaying it to someone i had only met a few times before, hearing from her lips too that yes, these things are just thoughts, just made a momentous impact on me.

Sometimes, things Jennifer mentioned, i remembered from my last therapy course. I realised in those moments that those sessions in 2012 was not wasted time, they were helpful at the time and could be helpful for my future. A building block to my current sessions.

Heart clinchingly, my Dad passed away when i was 13. I spoke briefly about this to my therapist at the time when i was doing my first round of therapy sessions when i was 18.

The therapist would sometimes bring it up but i always tried to shift away from this as i believed people thought i had OCD because of this experience I had gone through losing my Dad. I used to say to ones who thought this that no, my OCD has got nothing to do with it, I had it when i was 8 well before this happened.

I went into my new sessions with an open mind. To discuss everything. To allow everything a chance of a could be. We spoke about my Dad. We spoke about my Mom, Richard, brothers, uncles, the next door neighbour, the man across the street, nieces, nephews, friends.
And more importantly, we spoke about the feeling of responsibility.

Even though, going through the hardest point in my OCD where leaving my apartment wasn't becoming an option anymore and being so ready to be open to anything being spoken about, I still wondered why 'responsibility' had anything to do with me and my OCD. I wondered why we would discuss this, is this really going to help? But, once again i left that room after this session a new woman.

How had I not thought about this before???

That i felt responsible for the intrusive thoughts and if i didn't act upon deleting the, I would be responsible?? We went onto talking for example about plug sockets. I had so many concerns and compulsions that if i didn't turn them off, something bad would happen. We discussed what would happen and my logical and realistic way of thinking came into play and realised, well nothing would happen. OK a little bit of electricity might be used ( and the £'s might be adding up ) but nothing that would cause anybody harm, which was my fear.

Jennifer then went onto discussing IF something were to happen. Would it be my fault? Am i responsible? Have i caused this to happen? What could i have done to stop it?

IF something were to happen, the likely chances were that something in the 'electrical side of things' were going wrong. Nothing i would know about. Nothing i could do that would stop/change from happening. Nothing my compulsions or thoughts could change. I WOULD NOT BE RESPONSIBLE!!

This flooded into pretty much EVERY SINGLE THING MY OCD WAS BASED ON. Every thought i had, every intrusive soul destroying thought i had was now suppressed by the realisation that I was not responsible for this. It was literally life changing.

There i was sat in a room with Jennifer, questioning why she would base a whole session on responsibility. That session alone changed my whole life.

I would have popped it all in one post but it was sooooooo word heavy & I thought uploading a chapter daily might be easier to read & digest. So I've added all chapters to my dropdown menu under lifestyle, where you can find all chapters inside <3

Thank you so so much taking the time out of your day to read my post.
I have been wanting to write a post about my OCD for a very long time but if you know anything at all about OCD, you will know how much information you can hold. It's so tricky to put it all into words sometimes and me being me, i do love to jabber sometimes haha!

Thank you so much again for reading and i do hope that this somewhat helped you or someone who you know. Even if it just gives you a little bit of hope that there could be a nugget of a cure out there for you to help you get through your journey.

Lots of love,
Emilie x

THE CURE FOR OCD? CHAPTER 1. WORLD MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS WEEK.

Thursday, 10 October 2019

* I just wanted to pop a little disclaimer before you start to have a lil read that I am going to be mentioning a lot of my OCD triggers, I know that in the past, I have found it difficult to read what others go through as it would sometimes mirror onto myself, so i just wanted to let you know to forewarn you just incase x *

**If you would prefer to watch a video version of this post with more in depth about my OCD journey, I have a whole playlist uploaded on my youtube of previous OCD videos I have filmed, this is the link... https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLQ8jW5x-QISE-nO2YXSW5sWg5X_I8FOli**

Chapter 1

I feel like I have been given the anti virus, the cure to the mental and soul destroying disease that is OCD. Never in all the years that I have suffered with OCD did i think the day would come where I could actually walk down the street and not be tormented by horrendous thoughts that my loved ones would be hurt if i didn't look at that leaf again. That something terrible would happen if i didn't pick up that piece of rubbish and put it in my pocket, that the feeling of not doing a compulsion (that's like someone is holding your eyes open and your wanting to blink type feeling) fades into nothing.

The earliest memory of OCD was when i was 8, lying in bed ready to fall asleep and not being able to close my eyes until i had opened them slowly and closed them slowly so many times that i lost count.

To describe the feeling would be like me trying to explain string theory (never gonna happen), but to come close... my mind kept telling me i didn't do it right and to do it again. This kept happening until, ''it felt right''. 2,3,4 minutes later i would get an urge to open my eyes and slowly close again, for reasons still unknown other than the fact it was the beginning of my OCD journey.

Cutting a very long story short, i went through the ages of 8-11 with tit-bits of OCD flooding in here and there which passed after time and little old me, just passed them as a memory.

When starting secondary school, boy oh boy wasn't that a new kettle of fish! After faking illness left right and centre to get me out of going to school that included headaches to belly aches that I was even given a scan for, to crying on the bus and running off into my moms arms. I then told a teaching assistant whilst hysterically crying outside my maths class about the traumas i was going through on a daily basis and telling someone lead me to being home schooled.

With Mike Tyson being lifted off my shoulders, my life felt lighter and more brighter. OCD triggers sifted through here and there but nothing compared to what i faced at school.

Upon turning 16, I got my first job working in a retail store called New Look. I stayed there for 3 years until after a collection of sick notes from the doctor enabled me to realise that i needed to leave that place and all the OCD dwelling there behind.

During my time at new look i did get referred to a therapist, which did help. But those sessions really only dealt with the struggles i was facing at that certain time.

I don't know if you find this but with my OCD, it changes. Over the years i have gone from counting to even numbers, rituals of tapping around the home, blinking, twitches, even more counting and so on. Since the age of i'd say 15, i haven't had any counting triggers. It has changed dramatically and significantly over the years, so the lessons I learnt from my therapist in 2012, don't really apply for me in 2019.

After many more jobs, many more heart achingly traumatising moments with my OCD, times that brought on panic attacks, times of suicidal thoughts, it was time to try medication.

Medication was never offered to me before when mentioning my OCD to my GP previously, maybe because of my young age at the time. But being the age of 21, i was able to make my own decision of asking for further help than what websites and therapists could do.

I spoke to a doctor after wiping the tears away that washed over me like when i first told someone about my OCD and she prescribed me with 10mg of Clomipramine.

This is a tablet for anxiety. In all of those years, i never knew anxiety was linked to OCD, but when being told this new information, it was like a light bulb turned on and i thought ''of course!'' it has everything to do with anxiety!! The palpitations i felt when i needed to reenact my compulsion, the tight chest and brain fog that hurled around when I had a horrendous thought come inside my head, the adrenaline i got when i had to climb up stair cases until i got cramp. This feeling of overwhelming terror was anxiety!

So these tablets were to help calm me down, which in turn would calm the feeling I got when I needed to repeat a compulsion, to calm my thoughts of panic down when the thought of a loved one would be hurt from not mopping the floor for the 5th time.

I noticed an immediate difference. But over time, i wondered what a higher dose would be like. I am now on 100mg. I noticed a huge difference at 50mg, but then moved home into a new lifestyle and routine and noticed old and new feelings, triggers coming back to greet (haunt) me again. So i spoke to my doctor again who prescribed me another 50mg and referred me to another specialist via the healthy minds service.

The doctors where i was to meet my specialist was a 10-15 minute bus journey. Dreading the journey thanks to joy of OCD triggers that filled the bus ride with so many outrageous thoughts and compulsions, i set off on a Wednesday morning to hopefully begin a new chapter. As cheesy as it sounds... the new Emilie chapter.

There i was sitting in front of a lady who had a comforting and thoughtful persona. A lady who looked like she was there for me and only me and was ready to start my journey off that very morning.
A lady called Jennifer.

I'm uploading the next 5 chapters for the next 5 days at 10am.
I would have popped it all in one post but it was sooooooo word heavy & I thought uploading a chapter daily might be easier to read & digest.

Thank you so so much taking the time out of your day to read my post.
I have been wanting to write a post about my OCD for a very long time but if you know anything at all about OCD, you will know how much information you can hold. It's so tricky to put it all into words sometimes and me being me, i do love to jabber sometimes haha!

Thank you so much again for reading and i do hope that this somewhat helped you or someone who you know. Even if it just gives you a little bit of hope that there could be a nugget of a cure out there for you to help you get through your journey.

Lots of love,
Emilie x

Here's my latest OCD uploaded to my channel...

Hotel Chocolat Lip Balm Review

Sunday, 15 September 2019

I don't know about you, but when I stumble into (more like arrive into, after hunting the store down before i can head anywhere else) Hotel Chocolat, a thought runs through my mind every. single. time.

''If only there were something that i can slather all over my lips that looks AND tastes like chocolate? hmmmm''

Low and behold *angels sing* there sat small, cute, wooden pots holding such a product.

Hotel Chocolat have only gone and brought out their own lip balm!

Willy Wonka missed a trick here!

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1. Packaging

Wouldn't you just looooook! I'm going all heart eyed emoji over here.

I have never seen a such a cute and compact yet luxuriously rustic lip balm in all my 25 years. I've never seen any packaging like this being offered amongst the usual lip balm brands.

When you grasp the soft wooden pot in your hands, if feels so deluxe. On the top and bottom of the pot is a Hotel Chocolat simple yet fitting label for the info needed.

2. Price

Please oh pretty please don't gasp when I tell you this ok?

You promise?

Ok, this lip balm costs £7.00.

I shall admit, a wee bit of air passed through my lips when i saw the price but we are talking Hotel Chocolat. A fancy, lavish chocolate store that always deliver quality and per-ZAZZ.

(Unsure of wether this is a promotional offer or an ongoing offer but online at Hotel Chocolat they are offering 2 for £10 mix & match, perfect if your buying for a gift)

3. Scent/Flavour

There's 4 to choose from including:

4. Formula

If you have experienced biting into Hotel Chocolat's dizzy praline chocolates, you may remember the texture inside that was thick, yet silky and of course delicious.

I don't know if this was Hotel Choclat's intensions but scoop the middle of a dizzy praline out and you've got this lip balms formula.

If you've never had a dizzy praline, 1. your missing out on a treat! 2. The formula is thick but loose, when applied onto the lips it feels like an oil when warmed from the finger tips giving a luscious juicy lip look.

5. Ingredients

In this particular balm, the natural blend of ingredients include almond oil and cocoa butter (what a combo) rosemary leaf extract and beeswax. All blended together to make a natural, vegetarian lip balm for us to slather on our puckers.

Hotel Chocolat do emphasise that all of their products are made in a factory that handles tree nuts, peanuts, wheat, milk and soya so therefore may contain traces.

6. Feel & Look

The balm is a silky but rich formula that feels almost like a glaze on the lips. Applied to thick, it could feel a little much as a small amount can go a long way.

Although the Almond Chocolat has a cocoa tint in colour, this doesn't particularly show on the lips, maybe a slight hue. But it does however give a juicy plump appearance and leaves your lips feeling softer and hydrated after first use.

Where can it be purchased?

Both online and in a Hotel Chocolat store.

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Thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to read my post!
What flavour would you choose? The fruited chocolat sounds very appealing for Christmas time, christmas cake lip balm anyone?

Can't wait to chat soon!

Love, Emilie xx

THE LOW DOWN

£7.00
(2 for £10 mix & match online)

May contain traces of tree nuts, peanuts, milk, soya and wheat

Silky, soft, whipped like formula

Vegetarian

Can be applied thickly for a great overnight lip treatment

Gives a glossy, plump appearance to the lips

Deluxe packaging

4 varieties including Almond, Fruited, Coconut and Peach Chocolat.

Hydrates and softens after one use

Smells (& can confirm after ''accidentally'' licking my lips, tastes) delicious

10ml of product

Revolution Banana Light Powder Review

Sunday, 1 September 2019

Let's delve into a puff of lightweight, finely milled powder and ponder of Revolution Beauty's gem of a product.

1. What is it and what does it claim to do?

This is finely milled baking powder and 7th in Revolution's loose baking powder range.

It is claimed to be just like their original baking powder with the same unbeatable setting and brightening power. The product is claimed to prolong makeup, banish shine, brighten and balance skin tone. ( everything i want and need in a powder, can i getta hell yeah?!)

2. Price

Compared to other baking powders on the market, this comes in at a fraccccction of the price.

For 32g of product it costs just £5.00

3. Packaging

I was excepting a rather big tub from the pictures i have seen online but when it arrived, i was so surprised by its cute little podgy-ness. It's compact enough for travelling on holidays but not tiny enough to pop into a clutch for touch ups.

4. Shade

Within the 7 shades, this one is designed for brightening lighter skin tones.

When purchasing this shade, i knew i wanted to try a banana powder after hearing many a good things about the benefits of brightening under your eyes, but was a little concerned about the yellow tinge.

With the banana light, although it does have a touch of lemon colouring to the powder, that cannot be seen when applied... thankfully.

5. Application

If you like to tip the loose product into the cap before applying, good luck.

It's rather tiny.

Upon finding this out, i opted to then use the back of my hand to sprinkle the product onto which works just fine.

I use a dry beauty sponge to pick and place the product on the desired areas of my face. Sometimes i bake, sometimes i just pat straight in. Either way is very easy to do with the sponge method as you can pick and place the product onto designated areas, rather than sporadically applying with a brush, if thats not your jam.

6. Feel

When i bake or pat this powder straight into my skin i get the same outcome.

Silk.

It doesn't feel heavy one little bit.

7. Finish

It doesn't cake into my pores or rest onto the dry patches of my skin.

It absorbs any oil that has annoyingly escaped through since applying my foundation or when i touch up throughout the day.

I love how it glides over my makeup rather than just sits there.

Unlike some powders i have used in the past, it doesn't LOOK heavy either and doesn't look like a cast of dust over my skin which is da best.

Flashback? nu urrrr.

With it being a slight touch lighter than my foundation shade, it gives a subtle natural brightness under my eyes which blends in so naturally to the other products on my skin.

8. Longevity

As Revolution claims, it does hold my makeup in place. It doesn't hold it amazingly well with some foundations but i put my blame to them instead of powder.

I do sometimes have to touch up around my nose but when do i not need to do this? ( gee thanks sweaty shnoz!)

I love the fact it doesn't clog and cake up when re-applying to touch up. It just blends into the previously applied products and sits just as well as when first applied.

Where can I buy it from?

Right here... Revolution Beauty or Superdrug

What are the other shades and their claims?

Translucent – for all skin tones

White – for the fairest skin tones

Banana Light – brightening for light skin tones

Banana – brightening for medium skin tones

Banana Deep - brightening for medium to dark skin tones

Lace – for medium skin tones

Beige – for warm medium skin tones

Peach - colour balancing for medium to dark skin tones

Orange – colour balancing for dark skin tones

Deep Dark – for dark and deep skin tones

Would I purchase it again?

100%

I may look into purchasing the shade 'lace' for the summer time when i might gain a little tan.

Thank you so much for reading my lovelies and we shall chat soon...

Love, Emilie xx

THE LOW DOWN

32g for £5.00

Comes in 7 different shades

Doesn't have a yellow cast

Brightens

Locks in makeup

Non cakey look

Doesn't cake when applying touch ups

Works well with other products

Looks natural on the skin

Finely milled and light texture

No7 Maple Glow Palette Review & Swatches

Monday, 12 August 2019

Well hi there No7's autumnal, everyday, go-to, travel friendly palette that i got free with my purchases, it is SO lovely to have you ;)

Yep, for FREE! Right now in Boots, they are offering this beautiful palette for ABSOLUTELY NOTHING when you buy 2 or more products from No7 Cosmetics/Brushes.

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You can buy this palette on it's own once this offer has ended for £25.00.

Here's what the outer packaging looks like in all of it's autumnal glory...

This travel friendly and everyday use palette comes with 4 flattering eyeshadows, a bronzer, blush and 2 highlighters.

Charlotte Tilbury had a very similar product out which i would have brought if my purse had let me for £49.00, which had very similar shades to whats being offered from No7!

The 4 eyeshadows are buttery and pigmented, offering different eye looks for many occasions with 2 matte and 2 shimmer shades. I can't wait to sweep that golden orange shade all over the lid as soon as Autumn hits for a burnt rusty eye look. Until then, i think the nude all over the lid with a smudged out line of the maroon shade will be perfect for a effortless day time look.

The blush and bronzer offer great pigment but gives an option to build. So if your only wanting a slight bit of bronze to the cheekbones, a touch of the brush will add enough impact without being over the top, yet dipping in again will add the depth you need to create the cheekbones you desire.

The matte bronzer is a caramel toned shade without the orange tones.

The blush is giving me NARS orgasm vibes left right and centre. This blush though has a slight peachy undertone but still lets that golden shine beam through in the light. So pweddy.

The 2 highlighters offer a spectrum of an angelic champagne hue to a golden goddess living it up in Santorini.

The champagne shade offers a gorgeous light gold effect which will be perfect for all occasions. The bronze highlighter could be blissfully worn on top of a bronzed cheek and even swept across the eye lids too!

This palette is just glorious. I can see this being my grab and go for when i'm travelling as it has so many steps i need to create my makeup look in one palette, for a drugstore price... well done No7 <3

You can get No7 Maple Glow Palette HERE

Thank you so much for reading and chat soon...

Emilie xx

*THE LOW DOWN*

Pigmented

Buttery

Perfect for all occasions

Nars Dupe

Charlotte Tilbury Dupe

Costs £25.00

Compact

Perfect for travel

Eyeshadows - 0.8g

Bronzer - 2.8g

Blusher - 2.6g

Highlighters - 1.9g

Simple Eye Cream Review

Saturday, 10 August 2019

Eye bags that i can fit my kitchen sink into? Puffy eyes that look like I've been in a fight (and lost) with Anthony Joshua? Tired dark circles that look like 2019's version of the solar eclipse?

Yep, me too & I'm sorry, i'm not having it anymore. No sir-ee!

Off i went to the shops to find me an inexpensive BUT effective eye cream and i knew what brand to check out first and of course it was simple, it was Simple! ;);)

Simple do the most.. well.. simplest of products that don't contain anything you wouldn't want to put on to your skin, you know all those mumbo jumbo words in the ingredients you not sure where to begin with pronouncing? yeah those ones. I knew that if i was putting something under my peepers i wanted it to be kind and sensitive just how i like my men.

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Packaging

When purchased, your soft 15ml tube of eye balm with come in a cardboard box which gives you all the info you need to know about the product.

The tube of balm comes in soft matte bottle with a narrow spout for easier flow of product.

With the tube being soft, it not only means when you think you have ran out... SNIP goes the scissors and voila you have a few weeks worth of product still tucked up in the corners of the bottle.

It's super easy to squeeze and control how much you apply.

Ingredients

Simple's soothing balm contains Jojoba Oil, which basically comes from a shrub called Simmondsia Chinensis (totally copied and pasted that) which helps to treat sores and bruises. This must be where the soothing property comes from.

As well containing pro-vitamin B5 which helps to heal wounds and moisturise. Vitamin E is also added in here to help reduce inflammation (i.e our puffy the vampire slayers) & has anti-aging benefits.

Along with all of it's ingredients, this balm contains Bisabolol which is basically the essential oil from German Chamomile which is renowned for it's soothing properties as well as helping irritated skin.

The Consistency

When i noticed this 'cream' was in fact a balm, it made me to try it even more. I know don't why. I think it was because to me a balm sounds like it's really going to soothe down my extra eye baggage.

The balm itself is a milky gel like formula. It's not thick like a cream and has a loose water like feel upon the touch.

Application

I was concerned about the gel like texture as previous gel products tend to leave a film under my eyes, which NO THANK YOU *washes off instantly*. But this product blends right in leaving a soft, calmed like effect to my tired little eyeballs.

I like to apply a grain of rice amount to my ring finger & pat pat pat niiiiiice and gently. I apply it under my eyes, to the sides, inner corner and brow bone.

The Results

IT IS SO SENSITIVE! The relief of no stinging is bliss. There is nothing but a refreshing cool, calm and soothing feel when applied.

When i apply it of an evening, i wake up with barely needing to apply any more the next morning. Although, i still do. I love how refreshing and awakening my under eyes feel when using this balm from simple.

I really like how it feels underneath my makeup. I find that it helps to moisturise my under eyes to minimise my concealer from creasing throughout the day.

Would I recommend?

It's Simple (hehe i'm at it again) absolutely!

Thank you so much for your time to read today's post & i do hope you enjoyed,

Love, Emilie x

THE LOW DOWN

£3.99 from Superdrug

soothing

calming

awakening

non sticky

sinks in quickly to the skin

reduces puffiness

doesn't sting

works well underneath makeup

sensitive to your under eyes

no artificial colours or perfumes

no harsh chemicals

no alcohol

no animal derived ingredients

contains pro-vitamin B5 , Vitamin E, Jojoba Oil, Bisabobol

2019 New Years Resolutions - 6 month Recap

Tuesday, 23 July 2019

How is it half way (or just over in fact) through the year?!?!

A seems like yesterday that i was compiling a list of goals i wanted to achieve for the year ahead with 12 fresh long month to achieve and woooooosh, it's 6 and a half months down & i think it's time for a recap to see how i am doing with achieving these resolutions.

In all honestly before i start, i honestly thought i was would be working 9-5 Monday-Friday, so a lot of these goals were set to work alongside this expectation, i thought i would have more structure (& a lot more money) but hey ho, life is so unexpected and let's see how my life has worked out differently from what i originally thought...

I'll leave the link here to my original 2019 Resolutions, Goals & Dreams incase you fancy a quick skim through to see what i have been working with here.

'' 1. Devise and maintain a structured morning and evening routine.''

Hmmm, yeah not so much.

With not have the structure of a full time job, the idea of a set out routine morning and night just hasn't taken place. I still would like to incorporate set things into my morning and evening routine that don't need me to be working in order to have them, so this is something i can definitely work towards in the last of of this year fo sho!

2. Time Save.

No job = more time.

So i haven't particularly needed to ''save time''. But, i have found myself batch cooking a few different meals to make sure i have a guaranteed meal if i have a busier week than usual. If i know i'm going to be out and about, rather than grabbing a quick sausage roll from Gregg's, i'll take my microwave lunch box with some pre-made chilli, bish bash bosh, i'm fed = time and money saved.

As regards to laser hair removal to save time in the beauty department, this has been a fail. The treatments are pricey and my bank is tiny so no laser hair removal trips for me yet.

3. Spend more time with friends and family.

To a certain degree, we have been making a bit more of an effort to go and see our loved ones but no has much as i really want. This is the most important goal for me to complete for the rest of 2019. Lilo and Stitch would be furious at me right now for not spending more time with my family, but stitch! That's gonna change!

4. Maintain gym and eating plan.

Finally something i can say is a full success!!!

I have stuck to my healthy eating and fitness plan every. single. week.

This isn't something that will change. It's a major part of who i am now and is my lifestyle rather than a dream.

5. Gain a presentable and organised style/wardrobe.

Although not yet complete, i do believe i have been able to achieve some style staples within my wardrobe that I'm chuffed with and along with feeling more positive in my body, i am able to wear things i may have neglected in the past and given them a new lease of life into my wardrobe, which is always nice to do.

6. Take more care of skin and hair.

My hair has had the pleasure of being cut my yours truly, so maybe it hasn't be treated by a professional for a while, but still, it's had a regular trim every now and again to keep it looking fresh.

My skin routine has been a little up and down, sometimes i do forget to slap on some night cream but for the most part, i always apply spf, LOVEEE taking my makeup off and thoroughly enjoy lathering my under eyes up with eye cream to prevent dark circles, yay me.

7. Make a house a home.

Yeahhhhh.... no this hasn't really happened. With no job sort of means no splurging on new home decor in Dunelm mill unfortunately, BUT!! We do have a new addition in our home which i have desired since moving in... a dining room table!! Can i getta woop woop?!

8. Hit 1k on youtube.

It's not happened yet but i am soooooo very close! Today's current number is 723, so i'm nearly there but do you know what, even if i don't move a single number up, i'd be happy with this amount by the end of the year, my youtube is my little happy bubble land.

9. Organise regularly.

I've gotten to a point of not being able to organise much more would you believe. It has felt so refreshing know that i have been keeping things like the junk drawers and letters organised throughout the year, it helps keep everything under control.

10. Get a provisional license and take some driving lessons.

Nope, nope AND A BIG FAT NOPE.

Me gots no monies to be spendin on driving lessons, i got a lil cat to feed!

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So, looking back at my goals for 2019 so far, i wouldn't say i've done THAT well. I'm a little bit disappointed but i'm going to turn that frown upside down and BE POSITIVE.

I have 5 months and 2 weeks to get back into shape with my goals and dreams and reach further and further to achieve them, gooooo Emilie!!

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my post today, i do hope you enjoyed and I look forward to chatting soon,

Lots of love,